Hearing God's Still Small Voice

After I had heard the audible voice of God twice in about a year or so span, I had yet to know the still small voice of God.

I pressed in to learn more about how God speaks.

Yes He speaks through His word. The Holy Spirit highlights things on the page as it seems to jump up at you, convicting, stirring something up in you...

He speaks through others through words of encouragement, exhortation, confirmation...

But I really wanted to hear Him for myself as I go about my day.

I was tired of all the other voices, many contradicting opinions of man...

I just wanted Him, to hear from Him, to know what He thought, what He wanted to say to me personally.

So I studied & prayed.

I spent time cultivating that secret place with Him all day long, feeling His presence often & being able to surrender to His drawing away from all the noise quicker & spend intimate time with Him being honest with myself & Him....asking questions, waiting for the answer.

I had seen & experienced much breakthrough in my life at this point starting from end of 2021. I was more confident of the love Jesus had for me. I was learning to stand firm in the joy of my salvation once again & trust in His leading, redirecting my focus on Him alone.

But I wasn't yet sure what His voice sounded like when it's not audible... He is always speaking throughout the day all day...its up to us to incline our ear.

He had asked me audibly before what I wanted & I asked Him to give me ears to hear Him all day long.

At times I still fought with slipping back into depression which is something I've been dealing with most my life.

Some mornings it's been hard to get out of bed. Demonic attacks would worsen early in the morning. I would feel physically in pain, sluggish, eyes swollen & burning, tired & heavy in the mornings.

It was a season where at times I was wanting to give up posting online in fear of those who disapprove of me, or because of feelings of unworthiness but still moving forward one step at a time, the fiery passion for Jesus renewed again & again.

I made myself get up & worship, sing...around that time I was going live alot with my guitar.

It was sometime in the beginning of 2022 when I heard my name being called clearly in my mind over & over...not audibly. It got me to wake up out of the bad dream I was having.

I went about my day wondering if that was God calling my name, urging me to wake up, to rise, get out of bed, giving me a push of strength.

That evening, I tried listening to a live video of a woman singing prophetically with her guitar, but I was talking with my mom, trying to tell her I needed to be listening, but we kept talking while washing dishes & I missed most of it.

I told her, I just know God will speak to me through this person. After a sentence or two of actually finally listening & hearing the live video, the woman of God began to sing prophetically... ⁣⁣

"Can you hear my voice, calling your name, in the early morning hours, before you get out of bed," I got so excited, told my mom, & was beaming after I received that confirmation.

I didn't even catch the rest of the live because I was busy telling my mom about it, this was all that was registered from that video. ⁣⁣Wow! Such timing!! That woman probably didn't even realize how much that one sentence meant to me. She just sing what she heard in the spirit.

Now I knew He really was speaking to me all along. I remember a time like many other times where I was on my knees, face to the floor, crying from deep down in my soul, feeling like I can't keep doing what I'm doing, feeling like there is no point.

There was a still small voice that told me to keep on keeping on, get up, don't give up. Then all of a sudden my tears dried up & I got up again. ⁣⁣

⁣⁣Since that day I saw Him for the first time in my adult years, I've been cultivating His presence even more, learning interpretation of tongues, learning to hear His voice day by day, my faith building as I got confirmation after confirmation what I've been hearing.⁣⁣

I still have a lot to grow. But in His grace, I will. He will keep me. He has to. I can't do this without Him.

I kept rising again & again. Even after I've failed, made mistakes, fallen, slacked...I kept rising. All because He kept me. Jesus. ⁣

So I will continue to rise above seemingly impossible circumstances, shake off the heaviness & lies of the enemy, rise up out of bed everyday with renewed vigor & excitement for the day, worship. All for Jesus, because He first loved me & I love Him.